I haven’t been on here in forever because, even though I’m still exercising and eating only healthy foods, I’ve been trying to focus less on hating myself & needing to lose weight, and more on just loving and accepting myself as I am in the process. 

I still want to be much thinner, but I’ve chosen to love myself now in the meantime. I’m just going to be patient and hopefully, slowly the pounds will come off and eventually be really visible and worth the wait :)

It’s not easy, and there’s always that voice in my head telling me “you’re not good enough, you’re disgusting, you’re too fat” etc. but I’m just trying my absolute hardest to push it out of the way and replace it with what I actually like about myself.

So far, so good. I hope I can keep this up!

I hit 1000+ followers!

ahhhh, i love you guys so much ♡

thanks for always being there for me on this journey. we’re in it together!

remember: set goals, stay focused, stay determined, stay motivated, be happy, get active, eat healthy and always, always, always stay positive! no matter what your goal weight is, you will achieve it. you’ll be fit and skinny and finally feel as beautiful as you already are and always have been.

seriously, i love you all. stay strong :) xxx

so, since i’m in pain today (from biking 18 miles yesterday + doing pilates), i wanted to still do enough, but not risk injury. 

biked - 8.37 miles

avg speed - 16.7 (slower than usual)

burned - 232 calories

now i’m gonna do some pilates and stuff :) it’s EXTREMELY hot in my room, since the weather just decided to become summer in 2 days… haha, wish me luck! x

biked another 8.40 miles after dinner :) burned 240 more calories.

total biking distance today - about 18 miles.

i also did some pilates / ab workouts.

super proud of myself right now! :) x

Yesterday I biked a bit over 7 miles in 30 minutes and burned about 215 calories.

Today, I biked 8 miles in 30 minutes and burned about 230 calories!

So proud of myself, that not only did I exercise again, but I did even better than yesterday! and I also had fun :)

I really think I’m going to be able to stick with this plan :) Don’t forget girls, always push yourselves a little bit further than the day before! You’ll be glad you did!

Now I’m going to go shower and then drink lots and lots of water. haha :) xx

I’ll help you out the best I can :) you’re never alone. 

i don’t get a lot of messages, but the likes on my personal posts and replies really make me happy!

yeah, i just wanted to say thanks for having my back :) it’s nice to know there are people out there who wish for your success.

always remember that one day you will be at your goal weight. Nothing can hold you back except yourself. If you work hard enough, you will get there. Don’t give up. Don’t lose hope. Believe in yourself and give it your all. Keep fighting. You’re strong, you’re beautiful and you can achieve this. You can be thin, healthy and happy, and if you give it all you’ve got, you will get there. 

i haven’t been going over my daily calorie intake at all, i haven’t ate junk food in 250+ days, and last night i finally got an exercycle. today i biked over 7 miles! burned 215 calories in only 30 minutes, THEN went for a 30 minute walk! 

i feel so happy and proud of myself right now :) i really feel best when i’m active and i’m going to keep it up!

best part - i even had fun doing those 2 things! it didn’t feel like a chore, it was actually fun. 

so excited to do it all again tomorrow .. and all the way throughout summer and on :) 

if you guys are having problems finding an exercise plan that you enjoy and that you can stick with, don’t get discouraged! keep searching and you WILL find something :) xx

I talked to my mom for an hour last night and basically explained what I want to do with my life, and all my goals as of now. I told her how the first step I need to take is get to my UGW. It would improve the quality of my life as a whole. I need to be confident and feel good about myself before I can move on to anything else.

My goal is to lose about 30-40 pounds in 5 months. The deadline is July. I’m going to warped tour and I’m not going there feeling fat and awful about myself again.

I told my mom that it’s really important that we get a treadmill (and exercise bike) by the end of this month, no later. It’s just not possible right now for me to get all the gear I would need to run outside in -10 degree weather.

I haven’t been exercising the past few months but I’ve been eating super clean and I lost ALL of my stomach fat. Without sucking in at all, my stomach is almost flat! It’s true what they say “you are what you eat.” If you eat fatty foods, your stomach will be fat. If you don’t, it won’t. Simple! I can just imagine what it will be like after I tone it, too!

I’m really excited to start this at the end of this month/beginning of Feb!