hey babes :)
i think i’m going to make an effort to be on this blog more often. i’ve been kindof staying away from it on purpose for a while, because as i mentioned the last time i posted, i’ve been trying to focus on loving myself, and my dashboard here can be a little triggering.
i’m feeling stronger now though, and a lot better, so i think i’ll definitely try to be on more :) it’s also summer, so i have way more time!
i just counted the days since i decided to start eating healthy, and it’s been 308 days! almost a whole year eating clean & healthy! i’m proud :) the best part - i don’t even want junk food anymore! seriously, if i crave something sweet i have fruit or frozen yogurt - way better! :)
I haven’t been on here in forever because, even though I’m still exercising and eating only healthy foods, I’ve been trying to focus less on hating myself & needing to lose weight, and more on just loving and accepting myself as I am in the process.
I still want to be much thinner, but I’ve chosen to love myself now in the meantime. I’m just going to be patient and hopefully, slowly the pounds will come off and eventually be really visible and worth the wait :)
It’s not easy, and there’s always that voice in my head telling me “you’re not good enough, you’re disgusting, you’re too fat” etc. but I’m just trying my absolute hardest to push it out of the way and replace it with what I actually like about myself.
So far, so good. I hope I can keep this up!